I’m doing my best to help my brother through a difficult time right now. I’ve always done my best to help the people I care about.
As is usual. my best isn’t good enough. The harder I try, the more I get screamed at, the more cussing is done, and things get thrown (a mess I usually end up cleaning up, I might add).
My best has never been good enough for anyone else, so I don’t know why any of this should surprise me. But it does. It surprises me, and it hurts me.
I’m sincerely sorry I can’t be as much or as good a help as he needs, but like I said, my best has never been good enough for anyone. Why should this be any different?
What the hell is wrong with me that I can’t seem to be enough for someone to at least appreciate what I’m trying to do and say thank you? Why is it that I always fail so badly that I get yelled at, cussed at, tantrums thrown, or the good old fashioned silent treatment for days? What the hell is wrong with me?
*Just for the record: these are things I’m asked to help with. Still, my best isn’t good enough.
I’m not supposed to do or say anything that offends someone with my beliefs. Yet it is perfectly acceptable for atheists to do or say things offensive to me and others who have faith of any kind. Someone please explain to me how this is right.
If you sneeze, I will say, “Bless you.”
Before a meal, I will say grace.
In times of trial, I will pray.
In December, I will say, “Merry Christmas!”
In times of joy, I will say, “Thank You, Jesus!”
If this offends you, I’m not sorry. Jesus said we would suffer ridicule and worse in His name. If you’re offended then I’m doing my job. I do not apologize for that.
Who are you that I should fear you more than my Father. You can berate me. You can hit me. You can even kill me. BUT, you cannot destroy me. Go ahead and judge me by your standards. It doesn’t bother me. I answer to the higher standards of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
Merry Christmas to all with love and blessings,